I don't know if it happens with other people or not but sometimes when I am hurt or disappointed by something, someone dear to me said or did or may be didn't do I, though not intentionally or purposely pull myself away, be straightforward (rude), impolite......The explanation I give myself for such behaviour is that these people hurt/ disappointed me on purpose, i let myself believe that they are the ones who know what i want, how i want it and if when that does not happen its that person's fault, so they deserve this behaviour.
Now I am no monster and I know this for the reason that soon after such an occurrence I regret it, i regret the way in which i dealt with the whole situation but then again instead of apologising, I choose to go back to my same old logic " THEY HURT ME TOO"
Sitting ideal today, watching House of Cards, It just dawned on me how i need to mend my ways and change my attitude. Motivation and Realisation I feel are the key to bringing about any change, especially in oneself. Knowing that love, care, passion, gratitude are much better feeling to experience, i'll pus my mind in that direction, I'll thank God for giving me such people in my life who care about me, make me laugh, kiss my forehead and most importantly who never want to see a tear in my eyes.
I clicked this picture of the magnificent moon because looking at it just brings me peace.
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